Music is awesome. Since I've taken back my radio, I've been reminded exactly how much music can comfort me, change my mood, or get me just plain fired up.
With that in mind, I'm making a "Compassion Playlist" to banish the fears of "What am I thinking?" with some new and old songs that always remind me that I'm not thinking anything. I'm trying to do what God is telling me to do, and if I stick with that mentality, everything will work out just fine. Over at 5 Minutes for Mom, I just posted about how I'm willing to be used to make a difference to Just One. Please check it out.
When I was compiling the list, I was struck with one problem: Most of the songs (all but two) are at least four years old, and some are years older than that. There are a few reasons for that -- as referenced in the "taking back the radio" post, I've sacrificed my musical tastes for peace and quiet in the SUV. I also lost access to new Christian music when we moved here to New England four years ago, leaving a pretty good Christian radio station in Houston. So "new" was buying the new CD of an artist that I already liked, or acting on someone's recommendation. But now I have satellite radio, so Spirit channel 66 is again introducing me to some new music (including Robbie Seay and my son Kyle's favorite song that he began to recognize and call the "Sundown" song, "Song of Hope (Heaven Come Down)" which I've just now had an aha moment that it's Compassion Dude Brian Seay's brother. So -- cool.
But why is having old inspirational songs a problem? Well, other than making me feel even older than my 38 years, and hopelessly uncool, I think that there's a spiritual reason it's a problem. These songs mean something to me, but for the most part they remind me of how God was working in me all those years ago. God doesn't want me to stay on that mountaintop. No matter how high the mountain was, we can't just stay there. Moses didn't stay and keep talking with God. He was sent back down the mountain to give out God's Word (the commandments) to the people. Peter was so excited to be hangin' with Jesus and seeing Him transfigured with God's glory that he wanted to build some tents and keep him and Moses and Elijah right up there on the mountain with him. Biblical record doesn't record a direct response to Peter's rash invitation, but they are all soon headed back down the mountain.
Yes, I have beheld God's glory. He got me through a year in which I lost a baby in my second trimester, my husband was laid off, and a maniac crashed into me on a mountain leading to months of crutches, surgery and more crutches. But that all took place over 9 months in 2002 - 2003.
I need to move beyond the past and recognize His work in my present and look to His future plans for me as well. Yes, I'm still serving Him. Yes, I've heard His call, but I've been waiting for something big to happen again (although, wait -- um, maybe all that "big stuff" wasn't so great).
That's what this trip is about. The 2008 Chris Tomlin and Brandon Heath songs are going to be my stones of remembrance of what God is doing and asking me to do right now, and even though it's the oldest song on the list, Shaun Groves' Should I Tell Them (and the whole Invitation to Eavesdrop CD) meant so much to me back in the early part of this decade. When I pulled it out so that I could properly reacquaint myself with the music that I had remembered speaking to me, I know that it is still alive and well for this time in my life as well.
I made an Compassion and Service iMixon itunes of the songs, so you can download one or all if you'd like, or at least listen to the clips.
Do any of these songs pump you up to "let go, and let God" to use a too-often used phrase? Are there any other songs that I should add to remind me of His work in the midst of serving Him?